dude i am so nervous cuz today i'm auditioning for another modeling agency. i have been with this other agency for a little over a year until i found out they were stealing from people so i terminated my contract. anyways i feel really fat and i feel like they're just gonna tell me i'm too fat and ugly to be a model. i know it doesn't make sense cuz i've been modeling for a year but still.

Current Mood: anxious

i just had oysters for the first time they were disgusting. too bad tho cuz they r low cal or so ive heard.

okay im so angry- the doctors wanted me to go back to the hospital as a partial patient, but now i hear im to be a fucking inpatient!!!!! i fucking hate doctors, dont they realize im 20 lbs heavier than the last time i was in (well i also lost 20 lbs over the last few months)!?!?

okay im so angry- the doctors wanted me to go back to the hospital as a partial patient, but now i hear im to be a fucking inpatient!!!!! i fucking hate doctors, dont they realize im 20 lbs heavier than the last time i was in (well i also lost 20 lbs over the last few months)!?!?

okay, so im 5'8.5'', and i want to me a model after i graduate. anyone know what my weight should be? ive had an ed for 9 years, and ive been down to 96 lbs, but i dont think i want to get that low again. im 124 now. any suggestions??

Current Location: at school, skipping luch
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: my brain

can anyone here interpret dreams?

okay, it all started when i was watching this episode of dr. 90210 (if you havent seen it its about these insane wealthy people who live get unnecessary plastic surgeries). and this porn star came in to get lipo on her thighs, but then she wanted her doctor to implant her diamond ring in her wrist- yeah, in her wrist bone!

so then i had this dream where i was in this woman's house, and i was just looking around, you know,and i wandered into the basement. when i got there, there were HUNDREDS of rats just running, running around all over and acting totally nuts. then i noticed that the rats' mouths were all red and dripping, and my eyes were drawn to the corner of the room- where i saw a dead body. it was in the process of decaying, and there were several rats taking a bite, having a taste.

what what what does this dream mean??

Current Location: do i even fucking know
Current Mood: exanimate
Current Music: my own voice

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Current Location: couch
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: norah jones

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Current Location: chicago
Current Mood: apathetic
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